Can't enjoy things as I used to. Haven't done anything worthwhile. I've made poor life decisions in the past with drugs, and my education. I feel that no matter what I do or say, I won't be able to control my life. I hate myself, and pity the ppl who put up with me. I try my hardest to cope, I exercise, try to get out, but lately I've been spending too much time on the internet. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I feel betrayed by all the ppl I used to trust.