Been back at university three weeks. The workload is intense and combined with my usual paid work I am very busy. I like being busy but the stress is getting to me. My mind and body are really fragile from being so unwell for so long. Today I drank more alcohol than I have in months and I bought smokes (again which I had been off for months). The stress is getting to me. My mood is low but irritable but I don't think I am depressed. I am also very anxious. Just hoping this will pass as I get used to the workload.