((Mouse))

Damn, I would hate that. I personally believe you are most perfectly normal for wanting even five minutes with T. Five minutes with T is better than five minutes alone, isn't it? Anyway, maybe you can journal whatever you would have said to T today. Or draw a picture of your inner child who missed T?

Once I was stuck in a really heavy traffic jam due to an accident and luckily, I had a cell phone and was able to call T from the car. Even luckier, he had extra time because the person after me had cancelled so I was still able to see him.

Sorry you are feeling so sad.