I wasn't diagnosed with BP until I was 46. Prior to that I was diagnosed with MDD and GAD. I was ambivalent about my diagnosis. My meltdown in 2011 was due to anxiety, not BP. I'm on disability due to anxiety, not BP. I think BP can aggravate my anxiety at times, but even with the depression stabilized I'm still nervous. I can't do the job I was doing; it requires a security clearance and it's not available anymore. Although I had a clearance with depression I don't think I could get one with BP. I can't do many entry-level jobs because of my anxiety and my bad back. I'm not sure what I would do if I had to go back to work. I just hope I pass the periodic reviews I'm supposed to have.