HI sister, No I'm not sad anymore, infact today has turned out to be a really good day, re this. I actually got to tell T that I hate the boundaries, something I've not really had to say beforee because I've always managed to get there and make the most of the time. She wouldnt have given me extra slot even if she had it. I've emailed with her again this afternoon and was quite open and honest and told her I appricate her sticking to her guns as it gives me permission in my life to stick to my guns, but having said this, I still struggle with knowing she cares, to which she replied that I was trying to force her to do something to prove she cares when infact the boundaries are there because she cares and to keep me safe and protected adn she wouldnt pretend to care and if she didnt care that would be something we would work with. You know once upon a time reading that last bit, about if she didnt care we'd work with it, would have sent me running, now I guess I do trust that it wouldnt be a "I don't like you" kind of bitterness, it would be a real honesty about ones feelings toward another, something we all have at times, and that doesnt mean THE END of us...emotional honesty is indeed the VERY BEST POLICY...even though its all very new to me....the only honesty I/we that grew up in dysfunctional families knew was brutal emotions, not honest emotions...so yes, today was a very good session, even though it never took place, if that makes sense :-)