The thought "I don't know if I can make it five weeks stable." I don't feel stable. I feel doomed for another episode. I'm sleeping 4-14 hrs depending on the night. I'm getting dizzy and light headed from not drinking/eating enough, complete with white spots and far away hearing when I go outside for to long, to long means ~ 20 min. I'm working on that though. plus I'm all confused and disjointed. which leaves me scared, I'm smart I shouldn't be confused and disjointed.

H is still depressed but he's leaving the room and even though he had great protest he took a shower.