Hello Jadenmia1: Well... you are seeing a therapist... which is an excellent start! But your T can't really help you if you are not honest with her. I've stopped seeing therapists in part due to the fact there are things I can never talk to anyone about. So what's the point?

My thinking, with regard to your post, is... lay it all out there with your T. You might also consider some psych med's if you're not already on some. It doesn't have to be permanent. But sometimes a person needs something to buoy them while they're trying to work things out in therapy. At some point, you might also consider some couples counseling, if your hubby is willing...