My problem is that I've lied to my girlfriend (girl A) in the beginning of our relationship about another girl (girl B) that I had been dating for 3 years and was still technically in a relationship with girl B that was fading for months before I even met girl A. I had broken it off with girl B during my time with girl A and girl B found out about this. She ended up hacking into my social media accounts and talked to girl A about what a terrible person I am and that I've cheated twice in the relationship with girl B and that I have lied. I have come clean with myself that I was a horrible person in that relationship and I ended up going to therapy sessions to figure things out for myself. Girl B had contacted me multiple times since the incident over the phone to clear everything up to come to peace with each other and to come to full closure and in the end we ended all conversation for good, which I had told girl A the full open and honest details of our talks with each other. This all happened about 5 months ago. I understood the reasoning of why I acted as I did in the relationship with girl B and that is because we weren't compatible from the beginning and I was always looking for changes in the first few months. The reason it dragged on for so long is because we began the relationship from a distance and when we were together I thought things could change and it could grow into something I wanted, but it was never happening. I was weak and didn't break things off when I should have from the start, but I didn't know exactly what I wanted. Girl A knows this and we ended up working through things and we spent most of our summer together very happily but of course with some occasional doubts in her mind. I've come to an extreme realization what I want out of a relationship and the type of deep connection and commitment to oneself and each other to make things work after I had met girl A. I have been fully open and given her full power, respect, honesty, love, and care. Aside from the problem in the beginning, which I know is a very large issue, we have fully gotten along without any arguments or other issues and I know both inside and out of the relationship I can call her a best friend. As of the past few weeks, girl A has been indecisive about our relationship and to my knowledge it's because of the trust issue as well as seeing me in a different light from my previous broken relationship. Just a few days ago she had broken up with me to have space and says we can be friends when she is ready and doesn't want to say no to a possibility of a future relationship because we might be able to start from a new base instead of building on something that was broken. I put my trust in her and i know she is being sincere, but I am at a loss of what to do to possibly make her feel comfortable and safe with me. I've told her in totality what I am capable of as a person, how I have learned and grown, and why things are different for me in our relationship compared to any other. I don't just tell her these things, but I've been taking action with my words. I take deep meditative thought if it is worth it for the both of us from my end and it is a definite yes. I know I have to focus on improving myself first and that's something I've been doing. She just left for a mission trip without internet or a phone so it forces us into not talking for a week and that could possibly extend out when she comes back. I am respectful of her space and I will give it to her but I don't know if I should try to communicate if too much time goes by, whatever that may be. I know it's a possibility that I could have lost her forever and that's not one I want to ever think about since she is absolutely unique to anyone I've ever met and I've been and will continue to put in all the energy it takes to make things right for the both of us. I am not one of those horror stories of once a liar/cheater, always one. I've been doing a lot of reading over this but I believe it's until you know with certainty and you have found exactly what you are looking for when your life perspective will completely change. When I had met girl A, she connected with and understood me in a very short period of time, which is something I never fully felt in my previous relationship. Unfortunately for me, I carried baggage when I did find the one I was looking for. I guess I am posting this to get any opinion on what to do or anything I can possibly be doing to mend things. Thanks