Thanks so much everyone. I'm calmed down today. Now I'm just sad about it instead of being so angry. Luckily the bag they took just had one thing of yarn that I was making a beanie out of for my friend. The hook must have fallen out; it was laying on the floor of my car. They got the scissors and my threading needle. My boyfriend said he'll help me replace those things. Its mostly the window that I'm so bummed about. My boyfriend has a friend in the glass business, so he may be able to hook us up. Also, my boyfriend's parents kept asking him what he wanted for his birthday and he didn't know. He said last night that he knows now, he's going to ask them to replace the window. I told him thats not a very fun birthday present but he was adament. So one way or another, it'll get replaced. I feel blessed in that sense.

The worst part is that I have to take Grandma around today. We take her car, but I'll still have to tell her about this and its going to break her heart. I also will no longer be willing to park my car at my boyfriend's apartments. They have a break in about once a week there.

I just felt to violated when I opened up my car last night and saw that....it was easy to see how they targeted my car. It wasn't parked next to another car, and it wasn't under a light. They may have seen the crochet bag and thought something valuable was in there. But they didn't even get the finished project, because I got asked to lead the meeting last night and didn't finish it. I was more sad that they took a project I was making for a friend. Somehow I'll get my hands on more of the yarn and start from scratch.

I bulletined on a myspace a reminder not to leave anything in site that might be appealing for a thief. I always brought my bad bag into my boyfriend's place, and the one night I didn't, it was a target.

For the first time last night, I thought about getting drunk. I was just so suddenly overwhelmed. The whole thing with my tooth pain, the recent struggles with my boyfriend, living with MS, trying to get back to work.....I wanted to just get obliviated. Luckily the thought was only a crossing thought and I didn't even come close to getting beer. I called my sponsor when I got home and she let me vent. This is all about life on life's terms. Today I'll write out my anger and then the next step is to start praying for the thief, that they find some peace, find a way to lead an honest and fulfilling life. I have no doubt that most breakins are because of addiction, looking for drug money. So I pray that one day they find a way out, that they realize their life is full of destruction and cruelty, and that they will realize there is another way.

It takes a lot less energy to send up good thoughts for these people then it does to stay angry at them.

Anyway.....thanks for letting me ramble, and I'm so grateful I have PC and all of you.


Rayna