Great post Richard. And it really helped me this particular morning. My car was broken into last night, the window shattered. I kept telling God NO MORE. But I like the playright theory....about how God can't control everyone, because God controls no one. I don't believe in anything concrete either. I don't know what my higher power is, I just know that I'm not it. So I do the same, try to go about my daily life a good person, and say thank you. Last night I thought about getting drunk for the first time in a long time. It was just too much, too much had happened in recent events. My sponsor told me its about life on life's terms. She reminded me that just because we get sober, doesn't mean life stops. We just walk through it sober and try to do it with grace.

The fact that this alcoholic didn't drink last night is proof to me that something other then my alcoholic mind is running the show. It could just be the part of me that knows right from wrong, it could be a force, I don't know. I came to believe in a higher power; I didn't come to understand a higher power.

So yeah, I quit wondering and just surrendered. And I'm still sober.