My T had no idea I was triggered before she got my email. She purposely didn't write back until Friday. She said she was angry because I was rude and I need to realize she's human. She wants me to think before I spout out my feelings to her, and to others. I do sometimes react like that with others but mostly with her.

She said it would be fine to talk about the triggers in the session. We did. I CAN comfort myself, she said. She asked what DBT skills I could use. I said radical acceptance for her not being my friend and being my T. I asked her to say that to me. She did, but added that she cares about me. I said my head knows the reality but my heart doesn't.

I said it's because she's too friendly and she said if my style isn't good for you.... I cut her off the I think, said I am not going to quit.

She had me close my eyes and talk about how I felt last when I saw her. Like she hit me, I said. She left me alone. Didn't want me. How it was like when I wasn't in the family movies because I wasn't born yet.

At some point, she said, and I agreed, that she oops, I have a friend over, will continue later.