There is this man from over 30 years ago who intimidated me badly and through all of his abusive actions of many kinds put a lot of terror into me that I had with me for over 30 years.

I had been checking the death registries every few years to see if he was still alive as I thought all along that he could come after me again that's how bad he was to me and how bad he was. Over all the times I searched the death registries he was not dead.

One day I ran across his daughter on Facebook and saw that she had recent pictures of him on her page. I wondered if after all these years if he had changed. Could he have? I hoped he would have for once in my life. I had some drinks one night and friend requested her on FB. She accepted and she must have remembered me because she told her father and then she requested my phone number because he wanted to talk to me. I didn't know what to do or think but he also left his phone number. So I drank some wine and got my courage to call him and found he was just as mean and ornery and intimidating as always even though he said thank you a few times which was something new. As a result of me calling him, he had my phone number and continued to call me and he told me he had Stage 4 cancer and wanted Hospice and bring it on! I told him what hospice was like because my mom went through it and tried to be nice to him hoping he would be nice to me but then he said something very intimidating to me about how someone could hurt my dog and me. The way he put it was very scary and it brought back flashbacks of what he did to me. Then I put his phone number on my special call feature that does not allow the call to go through to me. I left his phone number on there.

I continued to see him on FB with his daughter and then how he had gone into the hospice home. About 3 weeks ago on her FB page she announced he had died. That night of his death I had a horrible nightmare:

I was laying on the couch and I could see myself lying on the couch and the man's spirit entered my apartment and was trying to enter my body and my dog's, I saw it as an evil spirit trying to enter me and then it changed and I woke half way and I felt this really intense terror that was laying atop my stomach yellow ball of terror/fear that had been in me for all of these years (over 30 years). As this happened I was awake and the fear/terror left me. It is gone now. I am no longer terrified.

I have been thinking about what happened and some of the explanations sound crazier than what I just wrote. But that terror has left me and the relaxation I feel now is real.