Hi Skeezyks, thanks for replying. I know it's a part of being a young man but most young men can do something about it.

I spent from the age of 18-27 receiving therapy and psychiatrist care. After that they didn't have anything left to do or try. Nothing...

I've since tried to get them to give me further care and they just say they can't help me, basically unless I work or study again they wont let me see anyone.

Also, when I do talk to a professional I can't say what I need to. Anything that isn't affecting me at the time of the appointment is like it's someone else that it affects rather than myself, it's hard to explain, but I don't care about it then, no matter how bad it is. I used to hate going to sleep because I'd have this strange sensation that there'll be someone else in my body the next day.

Really just at a loss. I've never been suicidal but my hope level is below 0. Life only has a point to it if you experience happy moments between the bad ones and I haven't in years.