I had a mixed episode a little over a week ago and slit my wrists open. They wouldn't stop bleeding so I went to the er and was committed. The doctor took me off most of my medications except rexulti and lithium and klonipin which he lowered. My mixed mania turned into full blown mania and I brought in a baby bunny and a bunch of toads I snuck in under my shirt and in my pockets and I released them on the unit. But I was psychotic for a few days. Now I'm having bipolar depression. I am being put on Lamictal for a Lamictal lithium combo which should help but it takes forever to dose up on lamictal. The funny thing is I can still laugh easier off the geodon and remeron. I no longer feel like a zombie and my parents feel like they have their old son back. I just worry about my depression. I've been over sleeping and not eating. I've wanted to die constantly. I am going back there for something called the focus program. It's for bipolar. But neither the doctors at the psych hospital or my pdoc will give me another antidepressant because of what it does. I think I should wait this out and let the lithium stable out my mood. Any thoughts?