I'm very sorry you're going thru this. Never a dull moment here.
Reading between the lines, you feel the real problem is alcohol, right.
Have you told any doctor or similar?. Or gone to some meetings?.
Alcohol was a peripheral for me, but I have friends for whom it was the root of all problems.
These questions are for you. To be anwered to yourself. I'm just trying to shed some light here.
Wish you the very best. Get well soon.