I'm not a survivor because I am still right there.

I just left my abused familly behind me. It was hard but I did it. But I'm still being abused by my husband. I can't say what I want to say, can't give my opinion, can't say how I feel, can't do anything.

He says do whatever you want but this is not true. Everytime I try to say something or do something he starts yelling and gets angry. And I can't deal with anger, I just back away, keep silent. I thought that I didn't want to reply to him at times because I was scare of hurting him but I found out lately that this is not it. I'm scare of being more hurt and quitting.

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