Hello M3233: Well... of course this is exactly what happens with a lot of us not only regarding therapy & self-help techniques, but also with regard to med's. We do what we need to do & start feeling good. Then we decide: "Oh... I don't need that anymore." And then, of course, we soon find ourselves heading back down into that pit we just climbed our way out of!

So I think, with regard to this kind of behavior, you have lots-&-lots of company. I send my best wishes to you with the hope that you will be able to find your way past this kind of on-again / off-again behavior...