[QUOTE=sunbeem;5229195]He is not cognitive now. He went in for a heart operation and now his kidneys have not been working. He doesn't know anyone even his wife or me. He is going to be on hospice but as I said he won't be around much longer. I have known him for 50 years and that is a long time. My son is coming home this weekend to go over to see him they have a special relationship. I will be glad to see my son I don't get to see him much he lives quite a bit away now. I know I will survive it just doesn't seem like I will right nowcalled my therapist and made an appointment, but I called back in about an hour and cancelled it. Don't know why I did that. Depression is so bad it's hard to move.