I've been on meds with some nasty side effects, but for me it's Lithium. I've never been on it, but I get this imagery of it being like taking a heavy metal The idea that you have to get frequent blood tests scares me that something could go wrong so easily.

Do you have days, out of nowhere, when your mind is so disorganised and scattered that you can't seem to get anything done? I find it extremely frustrating and unpredictable. Would you consider it a short BP episode?