Bit of a #@&% day really. Earlier this week thought we had had a breakthrough with work bully - we had two days of hopefulness then yesterday and today declined into the same old same old. It is so confusing. As my immediate boss she changes the rules all the time... I try to follow the new ones then they get changed on me all over again. She says "don't do that, do this. I do this then get yelled at - "NO, you need to do THAT, I TOLD you that already! How come you don't get it - everyone else does!" So it was a great day of just being wrong with every single thing I did.
Then T canceled on me. I was bummed. We haven't seen her for a month - tried to get an earlier apptmt because not dealing with the work stress but couldn't, and now we can't see her til the end of September as I am going away.
We tried to set up a skype apt with ex t, but 3 weeks ago she told us she would contact us to set up a time, and she hasn't yet. We can't do that til the end of Sept now too.
Then abusive effing father calls to say the stupid mother woman is very ill (is looking pretty serious now) and he needs me. He effing needs me. I don't want that. It scares the crap out of me. I see months of her health declining and his needs increasing and I just. cant. deal.
Meanwhile my studies are falling further behind and I have to go away for a month for something study related that I am completely unprepared for given the year of work hell.
$%^#^*.