Yeah, I'm planning to do this. In fact we already agreed we'd take another/closer look at the dynamics.

What I'm trying to figure out here is what do I want/need instead. As I'm pretty sure that this question will come up.

'Pushing too hard' probably sums it up quite well. I know I need *some* pushing so that I will start moving. Otherwise I just avoid all the time. Which doesn't bring about change...

But once moving I need enough space to find out which is *my* way...