BP for me has answered a lot of questions about my youth, it has not ruined my life. I will not let my diagnosis define me. I am very fortunate to be at a job where my boss is supportive of me and knows about my diagnosis, I have family that loves and supports me. My suicide attempt last winter almost ruined my life. I came close to losing my marriage, and still may. At the moment though we are focusing on the act of getting through the pain that it caused and I will probably come away with a better perspective on my actions and their effects on others.