i have T again today .my T a few days ago to ask if i could come in earlier to see her . i had plans but was able to change them so i said it was ok . but then all kinds of **** went through my head . i hate when this happens because it doesnt help me at all when my thoughts are so negative . i am worried that she is going to do this all the time now because i have a flexible schedule . i dont work or anything so it would be easy for her to just move me around to accommodate others who have a less flexible schedule. my brain cant seem to help going to the thoughts that working with me is less important then others . i dont know how not to go there . i hate it because i can see a healthier way of looking at it . a part of me feels good that i am able to do this for her and it makes things easier for her . but i dont want to be taken advantage of . i like consistency. it has only been this one time in the month that i have been seeing her privately.it means nothing other then she feels comfortable enough working with me that she can ask this of me . i hate how my brain is wired to just see and feel all the negitive side of things