Candy,
You had a terribly painful childhoo and that is heart-breakingly sad. It definitely leaves marks on a person to go through such awful things, no doubt about it
You did not deserve ANY of it. You were born into the world the same way the rest of are born- perfectly innocent and beautiful. The pain you have suffered happened because of your PARENTS' shortcomings, not any shortcomings of your own.
I totally support you just going to bed if you think that's what's best for you

I'll be the last person to keep you awake and talking about miserable things, if you're feeling like you can sleep now.

I'm just here for you as long as you want me to be, ok?
Sleep tight.

Angela