I try to stay focused and grit my teeth when I can feel an Other coming on and resist.

Nobody likes me here at work because of all this. I can feel an end to my work career coming on because I can't stand dealing with the looks, head turns, the ignorance, their status quo, the jokes and hateful stares.

I'm not a happy person. I'm never a happy person.

It's been 7 months. The last job lasted 1 year.