If the old me was here. He would be more then glad to be studying programming. But this isn't peogramm. It's about remembering the peroidic table! It's about remembering every quote the prophets have said. And other nosense! Although I think even if it was about programming I couldn't do it now. All the pain I took has worn me down and killed me. Everyday I walked to school with my own foot and took 6 hours of torture and constant bullying and our school didn't do anything which even encouraged them more. And little by little i felt myself wearing out like a brake disk in a car. I literally knew I was gonna end up like this. And I did. And only now I realize that ehat an amazing person I used to be. As he's dead there's no bragging involved, i have to say he was amazing. He was one of thr best people I have ever seeen although back then I felt like any average human! But now I am awful. My mind has died and now it's just the body here left alone wondering what to do! I remember the first time I got angry I had forgetten how it frlt like since my childhood! The plus side is i never understood why people behave in such a way. And i wanted to know. I got my answer!! I know understand that people are not simply born evil. And I'm afraid just like my father and brother I'm gonna end uo loke thrm. Brainless zombies! Like anyone in this country!

Edit: wow that escalated quickly! Sorry! I came here for study advice and lost my temper :S