I feel sad that you are so upset about this.
I dont think you are missing out on anything 'normal'.
This is coming from a 25 year old female with 2 kids.

I wish i had better self confidence to know that one night with a guy was not going to make me like myself more.
Thankfully i got pregnant by my husband who is an amazing guy.
But the heartache and the low image of myself was awful. And the only reason why i started exploring sexually during my teens was because i hated myself.

Work on loving you for who you are and the universe will respond. If you enjoy someting, join a club or group. You will meet people like you and have a stronger sense of who you are as a person.

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