Hello pinktrudy: Thank you for sharing your story. I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. You didn't mention, in your post, if you're seeing a therapist or a psychiatrist at the present time. From what you wrote, 2014 was an extremely difficult year for you. And things have just gone downhill since then.

Sexual assault can have a lasting impact that echoes down through the years, particularly if left untreated. And, since it sounds as though you perhaps had some mental health issues even before your assault, what you experienced may well have had even greater impact. And so, now, you have fallen into a deep pit of depression & anxiety.

I think what is going to need to occur here is for you, in some way, to find the help you need to process all that has happened to & with you. And the typical way people do this is via therapy. I don't know what is available to you where you live. But, hopefully, there are some services available that can be of help to you. If there are services geared toward assisting victims of sexual assault, that might be a good place to begin.

Writing about how you're feeling can help too. So please keep posting here on PC. My best wishes to you...

P.S. Since it appears you may be in Puerto Rico, I found the following website that may be of some help:

WomensLaw.org | Puerto Rico: Know the Laws