Hopefully I'll fall asleep soon. I took a whole tizanidine (4 mg), 1 benztropine, and 50mg of benadryl. I'm really tired of this phone's battery wearing down. Very down.

I want to order my Moto G 3/ Moto G Plus. I just never seem to get around to it, and I want the delivery to go to my friend because I always get so nervous about deliveries. But it's such a pain to order. If there's the whole any-color-you-want I'm going to get the turquoise blue with green accents. If they don't have pick your own colors, so be it. I want the phone!

I'm feeling really depressed everytime I see people nicely dressed, etc. I don't belong in this crap world. I never knew how to cope with it. My best lifelong friend was so good at everything and he really enjoyed life. It should have been me who died! I hate it here and I want to go home!