I didn't really know what BPD was until I was diagnosed with it. I was originally diagnosed with Bipolar II but it didn't quite explain a lot of the emotional struggles I was/am going through, particularly my intense fear of abandonment (leading to VERY severe panic attacks), chronic emptiness, a lack of identity, and of course very very quick, drastic mood swings and emotional regulation problems. Like Fharraige, I "pedestal" people. She had actually suspected I was BPD on my first visit but took some time to evaluate me before diagnosing me, of course.
If you do tell your therapist your concerns about it please be warned that BPD has quite the stigma and do not get discouraged if she tells you "I don't really like that diagnosis" or "it's just your personality." A lot of therapists seem to discredit the severity of BPD in comparison to other mental illnesses...like bipolar, which I am starting to discover right now in therapy myself.
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Do at least one thing you enjoy each day.
Dx: BPD, OCD, GAD, and PTSD traits
Rx: Lamictal 200mg and 0.5mg Ativan as needed
"Now I can see all the colors that you see."
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