T is finally back. We had group today with the option to stick around for a short individual session afterwards. Group wrapped up and t offered again for anyone to stick around. I kinda wanted to, but everyone else left, so I did too... as I was walking out of her office, I was telling myself to turn around and walk back in to talk (it's been a rough month while she was away) but I just kept walking.

Part of it was a feeling of shame in really wanting to talk to her while others were able to easily leave, the other part was that I wasn't sure what I wanted from the meeting...

Does anyone else find themselves "shooting themselves in the foot" around therapy? I'm so frustrated with myself. I see t on Monday morning, but it would have been nice to chat before the weekend....