Thank you both for your replies!

I have spoken to T about these feelings a number of times and it usually helps unless I have completely shut down and given up on the session (like yesterday) then nothing really helps.

I don't think T would be willing to hold my hand or anything like that as I asked about hugging once and T said she can't hug me because of ethics/boundaries. Maybe I could bring a stuffed animal though. I don't think I'd be able to leave it at T's office since it is a shared office but maybe I could get a small one that fits in my bag?

Thanks for your advice Waterbear, I am always interested in hearing what helps others!