Hi CountZero I just wanted to acknowledge that what you describe are all classic symptoms of depression. The inability to enjoy things is called anhedonia and it is what I experience... For me sort of a numbness, not sadness, but if I try to do the things I like, I don't get any pleasure, and that makes me frustrated and angry, and angry at people who suggest I do those things to "cheer up".

Feeling like having no control, that people dislike you, it also typical. For me it is like my brain is lying to me to get me to be miserable, even with tons of evidence to the contrary, my mind only lets me see everything in a very negative light.

And of course the lack of motivation. It sounds like you know that exercise can be very good for depression, but lack of motivation makes that very hard. I am stuck on the internet a lot too and I come here when I have insomnia.

If you can get treatment for the depression it is likely that all of these may subside. Depression takes away our hope but there is hope and many treatment options so hopefully you can find something that works for you.