yeah. i was reluctant to hand in the script (not so keen on the idea of turning the actual pills into transitional objects for him) but... i kinda need the pills (extremely rarely) so i guess its okay... i mean, i got a bottle of 15 5mg valium 18 months ago just before i moved to this country. i still had about 7 tablets left. so, thats about one tablet every couple months. he gave me 50 tablets. they should last me about a decade lol. i'm very careful with them becuase i used to abuse temazepam (footies) in the liquid caps and i don't want to physically rely on pills (benzos at any rate) just to get through my day.

Yeah, the ppt. was hard... I'm used to thinking in paragraphs rather than in slides. So it was kinda hard to get myself into the spirit of constructing the talk by ppt.

I need to have a little chat to my mother at some point... I really want to get a mac notebook... so i have a reliable computer to write my thesis on and do presentations with. get a remote, too, so i can talk around and gesture at the projector screen rather than having to stand in front of the computer hitting the space bar... i'm getting a little excited at the potential in ppt, though. i mean i'm not a techno buff but the idea of using box-plots (text in boxes and little arrows between boxes) sounds like a perfect visual aid for the sort of stuff that i'm trying to figure out.

(sorry for raving).

i'm hanging in there... work focused... giving myself deadlines and also managing to psych myself up. going to work on above mentioned project for a little today :-)

feel a bit better about t now. i think.. in the last session i was quite rejecting and maybe a little... not quite attacking... but a little indignant. i see now i was trying to induce my feelings in him... i guess we can talk about it next week.

have a good day everyone.