I constantly put up a sabotaged version of myself in front of people. If someone likes me and want to be around,I just present myself as this cheap person or a slutty person or do something they can mock me about purposely and create a bad impression of myself! Then I regret it and shame takes over!

This has hurt me a lot in new situations where people do not know me. In a world full of people trying to put on a good impression,I seem to be an exception. I can't seem to stop this behavior.Is it because I don't know what my real self is?? I'm so frustrated with me putting myself down!