How u doing tonight? If we are still suckin air there is still hope.
Gotta tell u I read your post yesterday and have been thinking about that BEACH by your house ever since! I'm sure its hard to enjoy right now but...man...sounds good to this lifetime alaskan.
Medications have not alwys been the best answer for me ....its exhausting .....
Can I ask what the reason is that u don't want to seek medical help.?
I get it..I have my own fears about psychiatry..just curious
I really hope u feel better..
Do you watch movies at all?

Thinking of you
Northbelle