My mom said since I started dating my ex, she noticed I stopped doing what I love and stopped caring. I wasn't myself anymore, I felt peaceful with her, but never needed to venture to strive in life. I felt my journey was done and feel this sorta feeling is inhibiting me being myself in a new environment.

I'm so distant from myself it's like I can't recognize anything anymore.

I stopped in believing in my nonsense ideals and stopped being who my parents want from me or myself wanting me to strive for certain things. I just want to be at peace.