I recently reconnected with someone from my past (who I met in psych ward), I was very reluctant at first and didn't really want anything to do with her. But she kept on pursuing me. I obviously gave in, I loved the attention. We had sex a few times which was very intense. We were both in committed relationships and I always felt extremely guilty and I tried to end it numerous times.

Eventually she probably got tired of me and started to ignore my calls and texts. I begged her to not do this to me. She said she needs money, she will pay it back, and stupid me, gave it to her. She needs a phone, I give it to her, now I need the phone back and she blocks me on everything.

I am now glad the whole thing is over but I can't stop thinking about having sex with her. I think about it all day. In the morning when I wake up, when I go to sleep, when I am having sex with my partner. It is f***up I know. I just want to erase her from my brain.