Truth be told, you need to be single. You need to be this way to reaccess and refocus on who you are and what you want out of life. Relationships clearly aren't what you need right now.

You're afraid of sex, yet afraid of being alone. You can't have a relationship without the other half expecting some sort of intimacy. Otherwise it's just friendship. A deep and meaningful friendship, but a friendship all the same. Let's face it. You can't have both a relationship and no sexual activity. It's just not done.

Stop deluding yourself and do something for yourself and lose this B*stard.