I'm not a lesbian, although I've been with women before. And I do find women very beautiful. There's nothing wrong with finding beauty in the human body, whether it is a female or male, because they are both beautiful works of art. I love looking at beautiful women, usually because I'm wishing that I looked like them! But I enjoy watching gay men's porn for some reason. I don't know why I find 2 really great looking men together so hot. But there's a certain look that I like. Funny huh? See, we all have our oddities. Of course, I keep this to myself. I don't feel like this is something I could share with my spouse. I really don't feel comfortable sharing many of my thoughts with my spouse even though we've been married for 17 years. Sad huh? I feel like we're on 2 different planets, and he would never understand or even want to understand who I am.