Wow, Gahara, It sounds like you've been suffering for a long time. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I don't think anyone here can tell you what you should do, but it sounds to me like you're ready for something to change. Many people find therapy helps them with that; Many others find a way to do it without therapy. Everyone's different.

I don't think you're alone in your concerns. I think most people find it difficult to open up to a stranger, even a stranger who is not supposed to judge. I know I did--still do, sometimes. For me, it just got to the point where there just wasn't another option. I just had to take a leap of faith, trust little by little, and hope it worked. For me, that paid off.

Plenty of people have unsupportive families, too, though I wouldn't be so sure you'll have to inform your parents. Even if you're a minor, I think a therapist would respect your confidentiality up until the point s/he feels you're a danger to yourself or others.

I hope you find a solution that works for you.