I would also suggest a therapist that specializes in sex and intimacy issues. I can certainly understand your concerns about your situation, seeing how much worrying about any part of my body that I don't feel so confident about makes me completely insecure, and that usually for a woman has nothing to do with how we perform sexually. If this is something that you feel like you absolutely just must address, there are some surgeries that a plastic surgeon can perform, to increase the size of your penis. This of course is something that you're going to want to consider very carefully. It's major surgery, and like with all surgery comes the risk of complications, not to mention the expense. But, if this is something that is causing you this much distress, it may be something that you might want to consider. It might be worth the pain, risks, and money, to have to not worry about this anymore. Most plastic surgery centers have loan options that you can apply for now to pay for the procedure so you can make payments, so you don't have to have all the money upfront. Or, if you have good credit, try your bank or credit union, you'll get a better interest rate. I really hope that you find the best option for you and that you feel better about yourself. It never feels good to hate something about ourselves that much. You deserve to find love and happiness with the gender that you're attracted to sweetie. Whatever you choose, don't change yourself and who you're attracted to just because of a body part.