tsha, wow, that is exactly what my t said, about the brain splitting, shutting down etc, thankyou I am so lucky to have you all as friends. I don't know if it's my mum I want maternal love from, I want a 'proper caring' mum, she will never be the person I want her to be, I can't change that ever, I have broken that abusive chain, my t told me (I never abused my kids anyway emotionally or otherwise).If anything she says I've overprotected them, but it's better than the other way!!



by the way, my original post was a bit unclear, I am going through intensive therapy now, for the first time, other councelling just made me worse, this is the first time I'm one to one with a trained psychotherapist.

jin xx