Hi Sweet and Welcome to the Board! It IS depressed thinking that is causing these constant thoughts of suicide. The depression can also make us only see the tragedies in life, and none of the good things. Fortunately, there is help available. I hope you will call to get an appointment to see your Dr. about this asap. You needn't suffer like this. You may also want to call, free of charge, 1-800-SUICIDE [1-800-784-2433]; www.suicidecrisiscenter.com/whylive.html. Take care, and let us know how you are doing! Warmest regards. Peanut

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