Hello mindmadness: Well... the Skeezyks doesn't really know what you do with all of this. But I think I can sympathize somewhat with your predicament. I've rarely had friends during my lifetime. And I haven't had any at all for many years now.

Part of the reason for this is my interests have always been so different from anyone else I knew that there was simply no basis for any kind of relationship to develop. After a while I just stopped trying to be friends with anyone. And at this stage in my life I live a pretty solitary lifestyle. I neither want nor seek friends. I just prefer to keep to myself.

So, anyway, I guess my perspective on this is... simply pursue what interests you & worry about other people. Over time, you may in fact come across some individuals with whom you share common interests. But, if not, better to pursue what's of interest to you than to try to "reconfigure" yourself in order to make yourself attractive to other people. They would not do the same for you. I doubt that's of much help. But it is the way I see it.