Ah, you found "Her" finally! Mine stays a bit of a problem at times (can't ever quite comfort her or make it up to her) but I don't "need" her as much in that guise and, otherwise, she's a nice little companion, a bit reassuring because she has been through "that" and made it. If we can get through that then we can get through anything? Mine responds well to "It's okay!" repeated. That's all I ever wanted to know back then apparently. Think of the soothing words that would have helped you. You have the "voice" inside you too that she'll respond to. I have a photograph of my mother holding me when I was about 6 months old and I love the look of her hand/arm under me, holding me, and the strength and security I see/feel looking at that picture. I imagine that too.