Thanks so great that you feel hopeful, Nammu! I'm glad you post gave you some positives to look forward to! My new pdoc is an interesting guy. He tries to be warm and fuzzy, but he's not really. However, I do get the impression that he's brilliant, and very good at analyzing a situation, and being reasonable and rational. Maybe he's a better scientist than my other previous pdocs were. He's definitely a nice guy. A few visits ago, I noticed a drawing on his office wall of a wolf. He said one of his pts gave it to him. So I told him at that time that I would give him a wolf calendar I have from Defenders of Wildlife. Today I gave it to him. I could see he was very emotional about the gift. It means a great deal to him. I think he can sense I'm somewhat uncomfortable around him, and he said he likes me, likes working with me, and wants the very best for me. Nammu, I see you are a crone? Years ago, I was invited to a croning ceremony of a friend. I was so moved by the beautiful ceremony I wanted to have one for myself. Due to circumstances, I actually had two croning ceremonies. Odd - the minister for the first one became very ill and didn't get to conduct my ceremony That was a winter ceremony. It was at my apartment, and I had a sort of ceremony then anyway. She recovered in a few months, and conducted a springtime croning ceremony for me.