I love being stable. It gives me clarity. Along with the mania, I was also a drunk so that was a poor combination. Stability allows me to see things from a different and calmer perspective and it gives me the vision to try new things without being a sarcastic d/b about the world.

I grew tired of being an asshole. I'm worn out and I've worn out plenty of welcomes. I'm building toward some inner peace and comfort with myself that I never really had in my entire life.