Hi Mars,

Thanks for that. Yes, it sounds like you are able to acknowledge that you have a regular illness, and an illness that can be treated.

It must have been hard with your mother. I don't know if I've read it right, but it feels like your own depression has sometimes been sympathetic with your mother's condition (the panic attacks when she relapsed).

This sort of thing happened to me. When my Dad was finally ill with pancreatic cancer I came out in sympathy with IBS. It was like we were tuned in to each other in some nasty way.

It has taken me 7yrs to get over the major depression after his death. Only now do I feel like I'm in the world again, like he's not going to jump out at me suddenly.

I hope you get on OK with your mother, I think that makes all the difference.

Good luck, Myzen