I feel like I want to be a good wife, do chores, Make a nice dinner. I feel like I can act different when we are together and we can get along. But when he comes home, it's awkward, we eat and watch news, then another show. St hen comes the awkward walk to the bedroom and feels like I'm going to a torture chamber. I get panic attack and can't do it. I tell him I am too angry about what he keeps doing to me and how he ruins it all the time by acting how he does.